Dream:
Julian and I go to his mothers house for some family gathering. The only people there are his Aunts and male cousins, most of whom are very handsome, and all are very well dressed, either in black buttonups or white ones with a dark orange design on the back, a representing their family. They're all really nice, but the house is in the ghetto, near some train tracks and a tore down warehouse, or something like that. After meeting everyone I step outside for a smoke, and I see a bunch of girls sitting together on the corner of the street, on someones stoop. Looking for some female companionship I walk over to them, but they're not very nice. They all take me as some prissy white girl and totally dismiss me till I start arguing with them that they're being racist and isn't racism something that they always complain about, and that I'm nothing at all like what they would expect me to be. But my argument I guess is not very convincing since they still refuse to accept me, so I go for a walk. When I come back to the house Julian is nowhere to be found. I look and look and still can't find him, so I give up and lay down on the floor with the rest of the fam to watch a movie. I ended up kind of cuddling up with one of his cousins who is really nice, and seems to feel sorry for me cause Julian left. Never the less I make it clear that I am still there for Julian, and that I will wait, not like I can leave anyway since he was my ride. He kisses me on the forehead and I fall asleep for a little bit. Then I get up to go to the bathroom, which is really nice and fancy, with one of those softseat toilets. On the way some girl (a female cousin) stops me and says that Julian left to go on a date with some girl named Jen. While I'm dissapointed I'm not mad, I can't be, I'm not his girlfriend. While I'm checking myself out in the mirror I get a text message from Julian saying something like "I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have left, I hope you're not mad." I respond with "I'm not mad, but when will you be back?"
End of dream.
The meaning of the dream is very obvious to me, but kind of sad, because I would really like to be exclusive with Julian, and it's funny since he says that he is with me, and I have no reason not to believe him, but then again he does live an hour and a half away. And I'm just a huge hypocrite since I am still seeing other people.