I'm having a crappy day today. I'm just so confused about J. And I have no feelings for Chris but he is a lot of fun to hang out with. But I make too many of his dreams come true it seems, and I don't want him to fall for me, cause that would just be bad, since like I said it wouldn't be returned and I don't like hurting people, and it would suck not to be able to go to the Mill Hill cause things are uncomfortable. And I really hate growing up and being a grown up. It's such a pain in the ass. There is so much fighting to be responsbile, and I just suck at it, and I'm a shitty driver, and my insurance company are prics. aljfsakljfalskjfak;sljg;lkasjg;lkajgaskjlka;sj I don't know what else. I'm gonna go smoke.