The last few days I've felt weird. Kind of unlike myself. Kind of lost. And kind of, I don't even know. Starting with friday night when I got drunk out of my mind at a party, got up on a table and started dancing then proceded that with flashing my boobs to like 20 or more guys who were watching. As crazy as I am that's kind of out of character to me. Then the next day while completely hung over I was considering screwing the cable guy, just because I was bored and kind of wanted to bang and heeeeeeeey he was right there and was funny. Then today I randomly started thinking about Levi again, not because I miss him or anything. But I was just thinking about the time when I scooped him up in the morning and we got a six pack of Magic Hat No 9 and some Chinese for breakfast and then ate it at his house. It was the first time where I got to just hang out with him at his parents house. It felt special. And while at the moment it's not conjuring up any emotions I just don't feel like I should be thinking about it. Like I said I just don't feel like me. I feel like some different person. Like I'm out of body. I stopped smoking pot, other then like two slip ups that I've had, and I'm not stressed out like I thought I would be, and I don't exactly miss it or anything, but maybe that's why I feel so funny. It was a kind of big part of my every day life and now it's just gone. I almost feel like crying, but then I have nothing to really cry about and so I feel like I have no right to cry. All of if just makes me feel silly. Like I should smack myself and get over it.

Anyways, I better get in the shower and clean up my room. I have to go pick up Erdem from the airport.