Ughhh. Looking for a job is one of the most frustrating, and painful experiences ever. You put so much out there and then hardly get jack shit back! Are there not enough fucking jobs out there for people that we all can't just get one? I should've been a fucking nurse. They always have job openings for nurses. But noooooooooo, I wanted to be miss fancy pants fashion designer. AND THAT'S NOT EVEN THE FUCKING FIELD THAT I'M LOOKING FOR A JOB IN. I just want to be a god damned Personal Assistant. Jesus christ. I want to rip my hair out! Sending out my resume and not getting any responses is getting pretty monotonous.

And now on a lighter note:

I found an adorable faux leather coat from BB Dakota on overstock.com, oh and guess what, it's only $24.99... which ofcourse is 24.99 that I don't have considering I don't have a job. This is so painful considering that it is such a freaking steal! (Originally it was $68). But nope. Can't do it. Just can't do it. I'm allready in the process of canceling my order for that dress from Victorias Secret that I bought when I still did have the money, but which won't be in stock till the end of December. Fuck buying clothes. From now on I am a DIY queen. Everyone get ready for handmade christmas presents, cause that's what you will be getting. Other then my mom ofcoure, but that's cause her present has been sitting in a box on my desk for weeks now.

Regardless of all this stress I still do not regret having left my job without finding a new one. Fuck Hudson. I still need to write to karen and see how she's doing tho.