A two headed turtle has been found. I think it's adorable, even with it's handicapness. I would like to own it. Maybe him and Stewie could be friends. Oh poor Stewie, I hope he's ok. I hope I find him a temporary home quickly.

I feel sick as a dog still. I can hardly walk straight. Levi has the car today. He was supposed to get a phone charger and charge his phone ASAP, but his phone is still turned off. Not cool homie, not cool. Makes me worried that something happened. What if he got into a car accident, no license, no nothing, and they can't contact me cause the car is under my dads name, and so they don't know to call me. Poor Levi, and what if my car is fucked, my dad would KILLLLLLLLL ME times a gazillion.

Life is so confusing at times. Like I feel like an adult and a child at the same time. I'm working two jobs, I'm taking care of my shit and doing all the things that adults do. And then I live with my parents, have to tell them when and where I'm going out, what time I'll be back, who I'm with. They can take my car away, or ban me from the internet. Which I wouldn't care about if it wasn't for work. If I was to ever write a book about ym life I'd call it Stuck Between a Rock and a Hard Place.





So like howcome if in Cali weed is legal they are shutting down all the factorys that make weed candy bars and such. What a crap of bologne.

I got sick, it sucks. I caught it from Levi. The last 2/3 days have been really hard on us. So much against us, but we keep fighting and doing our best. Geesh how dramatic I sound, but it really is an insane amount of drama. Frienship lost, friendship gained. The world is nuts, it never stops. It's about time that I disseapear again. About the time that just keep to myself.

So yesterday I tried the Imitation Chicken (vega, meatfree, meatless, whatever you want to call it, for some reason I like calling it imitation chicken). It was pretty good, and very filling (or that might have been the brown rice). Does it taste like chicken? Who knows, cause can anyone really pinpoint what chicken tastes like? It has the same texture as chicken, and it peels like chicken, so I'm saying it also tastes like chicken. I can't remember who the hell made it tho, so I hope I see it at Whole Foods again next time I go.
But before I do go I need to print out some coupons, all for cheaper shopping. Amy's, GardenBurger and Lightlife all have them on their websites. Yaaaaaaaaaaaay

So as allready known, everyone and their mama is coming out with a Fashion Line. The idea blew up with J Lo, and Gwen Stefanie doing Lamb, Jessica Simpson doing her shoe line, Eve doing Fetish, Beyonce has The House of Dereon. And the list goes on and on and on. Kind of ridiculous, considering everything that these celebs put out has allready been done, seen, and thrown out. The only originals are Gwen Stefanie and Milla Jovovich really.

Well now to the list we can add antoher line by Mk and Ashley Olsen called Elizabeth and James
. The line is supposed to be affordable, but I don't think that $90 for a tee shirt is to be considered affordable. But I guess if everything you own is Balenciaga and Louboutin then $90 is nothing.

Also Lauren Conrad of The Hills fame has put out a line... made fully of Rayon. Both lines are 100% generic and item that look identical can be bought at urban Outfitters, H&M, or even Forever 21. So what the hell is the point? If you really want to make clothes be original, if you really must then do collaborations, and if you have no talent then just leave it the fuck alone.

I miss the days when the word designer meant that the person has skill, talent, designed every item, overlooked the making of the whole collection, created the prototypes, picked out the swatches, put it on the runway, and worked their ass off trying to market and sell it, instead no it just means that they signed their name onto a piece of clothing that they wouldn't even recognize if they saw it walking down the runway.

Don't get me wrong, I love the Olsens, and I like Lauren a lot as well. The Olsens personal style is fan-fucking-tastic, but their collection isn't.

I love the fashion industry, and have always wanted to be a part of it, but watching it go down hill the way it has been is slowly turning off the flame in me. But I guess instead of bitching I should do something about it, like get my shit together and start making clothes again.

Going Vegan:
All natural (flavorless) soy yogurt is just plain nasty. Don't buy it. But no need for discouragement cause the flavored kind are deliscious. Tofurky is kind of funny tasting, it has a definate hint of actual turkey, but there is something else in it, that is very strong, it's not bad, just a bit different and takes some getting used to. Eating wraps for lunch (kale, tomatoe, green pepers, avocado, tofurky, mayonaisse) is fucking great. They really make me happy for some reason. And Amy's allready prepared Lasagna is super delicious. I still have yet to recieve my Vegan starter kit, I hope it will get here soon. I bought a couple Vegan cook boos online too, can't wait for those to come in as well. I'm definately going to be cooking this weekend. I have a package of Tofu that I haven't touched yet, and like 3 Tofu cook books from the time when I was in Cali and decided to only eat tofu, it lasted like 5 hours. Smart Dogs taste nothing like real hot dogs. As a huuuuuuuuge hot dog fan (I used to eat them every day) it made me very upsat that I have to give them up. Maybe the other kinds are better tasting, I guess I'll have to try them all.

So to my great displeasure I have found out that I don't like soy Yogurt. Maybe the flavored kind will be better but the all natural kind is bleh. Vegan food #2 that I don't like even tho I love the original. #1 was vegan hot dogs, but I've only tried one kind so far so maybe the others are better. Thank god the weekend is coming up. I've finally designed a satisfactory Halloween Costume. Now I just have to make it. I think that I will be using silk, so that I can paint on it. I will be a blue ringed octopussy. yaaaaaay

Sometimes I really hate this job. It is so fucking boring. Fortunately Tim is out of the office today and so in my mind that means that I have a free pass to roam the world wide web freely, or as freely as possible.

So far I have managed to buy 7 books, all together (including shipping and handling) they cost me $46.09, that's about $6.50 per book, I must say I'm good at book buying. Now I just need to get as good at clothes buying and I'll by the best read, best dressed girl in town. I like that, I think it should be my new goal. I need to read more, a lot more, a book a month is unsatisfactory. But yeah, all these books are in a similar genre. The call girl, the alcoholic, the fucked up broken doll, the sex addict, and so on. I love it. I always relate. I mean I was able to get my shit together somehow, but I know that all of that is still lurking deep down inside me, and it takes a lot of energy to keep it there. I know the path of self destruction all to well, and I know that in the end it all turns out bad, and that all bad girls have to be rehabilitized. I never got a real rehabiliation, it was always more of a simple realization that this will lead me to nowhere, the gutter is not comfortable, and so I need to change my life around. And I did. I mean, I'm not doing too shabby, even tho I could be doing better, but if I keep on going the way I have been going then I should be doing great soon enough. But it takes so much energy, and self determination, and pushing, and EVERYTHING to stay on a straight path. It is so exhausting and the positive effects of it take so long to realize. While the path of destruction has such quick rises. Unfortunately tho quick rises also mean even quicker falls. Like cocaine. Quick great high, happiness, perkyness, energy, bliss. And then restlessness, depression, anxiety. Every morning after you wonder wether or not it really was worth it as you lay in bed unable to sleep playing Tetris to no end to keep you busy. I played so much tetris that it haunted my dreams when I did sleep. And then you do it all over again becuase you decide that if you can't come up with a straight answer for evil vs good so it must not be that bad.

Now instead of spontaniuty I have routines. Wake up, shower, dress, go to Levis, go to work, go to Levis, go to work, go to Levis go home and sleep. Wake up, shower, dress.... all over again, every day. Weekends I clean, hang with levi, and work some more. What a fucking exciting life I leed. I think I need to go dancing this weekend. Actually no, this should be a good weekend, but we'll burn that bridge when we get there. Right now I feel like taking a Vicodin. Mmmmmmmmmmm.... that would be bliss.

The above = hotness
2007 Ready to Wear - Proenza Schouler

Fashion News:

VALENTINO has confirmed this afternoon that he will step down from the company he founded in 1960 after just one more ready-to-wear show and one more Haute Couture season. "My future will be filled with new interests and challenges," he says. "Some may be linked to fashion, as I have a strong desire to create and support institutions to promote the study of fashion design, and to preserve the history of the art of fashion. It will be a marvellous continuation of this amazing adventure that I had the privilege to have. Even as a young boy, my passion was to design, and I have been very lucky to be able to do what I have loved all my life." The designer who famously once announed that "red is the only colour after black and white", threw a lavish, three-day party in July to celebrate 45 years in the industry. Speculation has been rife since Permira bought the Valentino Fashion Group, which owns Hugo Boss, M Missoni and Marlboro Classics as well as a 45 per cent stake in Proenza Schouler, earlier this year that Valentino and his business partner Giancarlo Giammetti would step down but they have repeatedly denied any plans to do so. Now the race is on for who will replace him... Surely it's one of fashion's most glamorous jobs: former Gucci designer Alessandra Facchinetti is thought to be first in line as a replacement, with Giambattistta Valli, Stefano Pilati and Proenza Schouler duo Jack McCollough and Lazaro Hernandez in hot pursuit. "I realise the house that carries my name will go through some changes but I wish to think that the team of designers of the various lines - some of whom have been working by my side for many years - will make me proud of Valentino's products," the designer adds. "My most emotional thanks go to the thousands of people in fashion, and to those the world over who have supported me all of these years. Finally, a special word of heartfelt thanks to my associates who have helped me make my work a success." (September 4 2007, PM)