I swear, I think I am the luckiest girl on this planet. Not because I have a great boyfriend, or a great job, or a sweet kitty, or any dumb shit like that. But because I am so not careful about my sex life that it is not even funny. Yeah, I use condoms for one night stands, and all that bull, but I have not been on birth control in a few months now, and if I am in an actual relationship with someone then I don't use protection. Basically saying I should have been preggers like 20 million times by now. I should have gone through like 5 abortions allready, all of my insides should be sucked out by now. But nooooooooooo. I don't get pregnant. All of the pregnancy tests always come out negative, with no condom, no birth control, no morning after pill, they always come out negative. And I always get my period pretty much on time. I think I just simply may be unable to have children. I should probably have a doctor look into that, but I don't want to jinx things, I like not getting preggers.

On another note, about my not-so-great boyfriend. I dunno. He's pulling shady shit. Which is annoying. But I think that the only way to fix him is to show him how quickly he can loose me this time around. But this shit is hard. I wanna call and bitch him out, but I know that if I call I won't be able to bitch at all. He turns me into mush. So instead I'm going to disappear for the weekend. He's not going to see me, or talk to me. I turned my phone on silent so that I can't hear when he calls. He better call. If he doesn't call all weekend then we're as good as over, cause he fucked up, so he should call. Eh, Love is nice, but it's fake.

Do you know the type of sex where everything just happens so instinctively, so animalistically, that you have no idea even what is going on, other then it is the most amazing feeling in the whole world, the most amazing feeling that you have ever felt in your life. And you feel so alive, and your heart is beating so hard that you feel like you're going to explode. The type of sex where no matter what you do you can not stop. Like as long as you are near the person no matter what you will want them more and more and more. The type of sex where you have to run away to make it stop, even if you're completely nude, you don't even care, you just know you have to stop this because if you don't nothing else will it will just go on for ever and ever and ever. Yeah......... I didn't know this existed either.... untill like 20 minutes ago. I want more, more, more, more, I want it to never stop, yet if I went on any longer I wouldn't be able to move. My vision is still blury, I don't even know what else to say. Goodnight

I am the happiest I have been in ages, literally years. And all thanks to one man. Levi. I fucking love that man more then life itself, and he loves me back, and nothing can change that, and nothing can break that, and nothing can seperate us.