ask me no questions and I will tell you no lies

The world around me has gone crazy.

There is the house situation. My parents are broke, even tho I can not figure out how this one came about. I was planning on moving out with my sisters, but I don't think that is going to happen. And so until I go to school I am getting a full time job, and trying to get one with benefits as well considering that until I go back to school I don't have medical coverage.

There is the school issue. I wanted to delay but everyone has made me realise that the more I delay the more likely I will never go. And so I am going to go for the next available term, well the next available other then the October one which is sitll available. Crazy huh? Yeah I know. But San Francisco it is.

There is the shit that happened with Dave in Niagara Falls. I talked to Leon about it last night. He is the only person on this earth, other then Dave and I that knows the whole story. He also gave me a wonderful perspective on why what happened did happen. I am so fucking happy/lucky to have a friend as great as him, really am. There were some tears, but then some laughs, and now I really do feel better. And I am also sure that I never wish to speak to Dave again, regardless of how much he tries to apologize.

Today when I got home from the grocery store I found a business card from a detective in the Lawrenceville Police Department. And now I am a kind of a witness to an incestial rape that happened over two years ago. That's pretty crazy if you ask me.

I also talked to Detrick today. He is dating the trashiest fucking girl that I have ever known my whole life. I mean like super filth. I don't get it. How can you go from dating me to something like that. I asked but he didn't want to talk about it. We're supposed to hang out tomorrow, and he's supposed to explain tomorrow. Also he is moving to Las Vegas in a week. :( Sucks. But hey at least when I get to San Fransico I will not be that far, I could just rent a car and go visit him.

Ha... I think that's it for right now. But that on it's own is enough to make me gon insane. Yet somehow I have been very stable and balanced, for the first time in my life probably. Ty and I are talking again. I'm applying to FIDM as soon as I get back from Poland. I have a great friend in Leon. I'm getting really good at ignoring Dave. And I should have a full time job when I get back from Poland. And oh yeah, I'm going to Poland, what a fucking relief. While at the same time I have so much stuff that I have to do while I am there. But that's for another round. Time to go to work now.