Dave and I have agreed to just stay as friends.
We believe that it is for the best because we would totoally not work out together.
We are both looking for two diffirent things in life right now.
He wants to have a wife.
I want to have some fun.
But we want to stay friends because we have an awesome time together.
He's a great conversationalist and a great cuddler.
Besides I think i'm having trouble involing myself with men these days.
Actually more like since Levi days.
Unless ofcourse the guy treats me like shit and stuff, then I'm head over hills.
What the fuck is my problem anyway?
Levi was the biggest douche ever and I still love him.
Ty was an even bigger fucking douche and I still wanna makeup and be friends, maybe more.
And why is the sex with the assholes always the fucking best.
That's another thing that I need.
Dick.
But I am not willing to settle for shitty dick.
I want Ty back as a fuck buddy.
That sex was damn good.
I'd also take Levi or Nick if the situations were diffirent.
But the way things are rolling now those two suckers better stay the fuck away from me.
Well, no, not Nick, Nick is cool peoples, just his girl needs to shut her fucking mouth.
Marta and I should jump that dirty whore.
That would be fun.
A little best friends bonding time.
Fucking a whore up.
Back to the main idea tho.
I need to get fucking laid.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I need to get the fuck out of here.
Move to LA.
Meet some hot and sexy rockstars.
And have them fuck my brains out.
Damn it.
Even masturbating is starting to loose it's flare.
I mean you can only do that shit for so long.
I'm just angry about my sex life man.
And the only ones willing I am soooooo not interested in.
Jesus Christ.
Where did all the hot men go?

Once upon a time, about a year ago...




I drank half a bottle of tequila by myself that night. What a fucking douche he is/was.





These used to be my girls. One of the most dramatic group I've ever known. Especially with the addition of these two...







This was my hair a year ago





That was basically my whole life a year ago. Being in love with Levi, trying to keep my friendship with Marta alive, constant arguments with Eye, Sherri, Yanni, and Jessica, and ofcourse also lots and lots of cocaine. Worst time of my life.

I'm in a happy place.
After work I'm going to some party in Hamilton where there will be a crap load of people that I do not know, but it's ok, Dave is coming with me.
I hope that BJ comes through tomorrow night and we go to Show N Tell
In Psychology class I found that I have Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder, which is diffirent from regular OCD cause I can still function regularly.

Had an awesome awesome day. Once I got up I went and picked up Julie. We stopped by shop rite, picked up some groceries, made omletts and bacon. We also downed half a bottle of tequila. Once we were done with breakfast we went to the pool. They kept kicking us out of the water cause of thunder so we gave up and came back to the house. Now I am bout to take her home and go to class. I love this. Julie and I need to live together, forever.

The rafting trip was yesterday. I woke up an hour before my alarmclock rang and could not fall back asleep. A little bit of trauma running round in the beginning getting directions ready and everyone together. Lots of mishaps and stops on the way to the place. 2.5 hour trip.... + the stops. Ola came with Penny which was awesome because I love that dog. Boat 1: Dave, Ola, Me; Boat 2: Eric, Paul, Nicole; Boat 3: Meg, Justin, and guy who's name I don't remember [James I am told]; Boat 4 [polish boat]: Artie, Pawel, Olimpia, and another guy who's name I do not remember. We hooked the boats all together in the order given above and poor/sweet Dave did most of the paddeling with random help here and there from Eric. Dave and Eric jumped off a really high cliff. My nose is bright red and I have a sunglasses tan on my face.



Me likeing Dave is completely going against my norm. I usually like fuck ups with no jobs, no car, no dreams, etc. But he i completely diffirent. He has a job which he absolutely loves, like mentioning his job puts a smile on his face. He has a couple cars, just that one he is currently working on trying to make it better/hotter. He has goals in life. Right now I think that his biggest ambition is finding a wife. I do not believe that I am fit/willing to fill that spot, but I still do believe that it is a great thing. He is a very positive person, just like me. He seems to agree with Rousseau that man is born pure and good but is later corrupted by his enviornment. We agree and many, many morals, and social ideas the only places we slightly disagreed was where his religion came in and his faith made him disagree. That's the other thing, he is so beautifully religious, it is amazing. It is so rare to find a person which is so purely in love with their religion and follows it so fulheartedly. Especially in our generation. He has a tattoo on his shoulder saying "soldier for god". And oh yeah, he is learning to play the hearp. Come on ladies and gentelman, this guys is awesome. He is also very sweet, kind, caring, funny, and a great leader. And oh yeah, my sis approves.